Motherhood.


It's exhausting, hard, and exciting.
Humbling, painful, fun, and irritating.
Sacrificing, selfless, and beautiful.


It's being everything from cook to taxi driver.
Finding joy in hearing your toddler sing the ABCs a million times - every single day.
Being overcome with joy and excitement when they learn something new and then immediately being upset because they are growing up.
Something that completely breaks you down, but builds you up all at the same time.

It's being totally cool and not even blinking an eye when you get puked, peed, and pooped on. Sometimes all at once.

It's unconditional love.

It's having a holiday where we are suppose to be celebrated and given a break, but we all know there is no such thing as a mom getting a break on her own holiday, right?

Motherhood.

I've been a mom for almost two years now and I have two beautiful children, massive hair loss, tired eyes, and a full heart to show for it. My days are non stop and my nights are usually sleepless. My hair is ALWAYS greasy and none of my clothes fit right. I sag in areas I did not know could sag. And as always, I wouldn't change a single thing about my life.

Last year on Mother's Day we were just a few weeks shy of knowing I was pregnant with Balen. I was up all night with Brynlee  (soooo much has changed!) Thinking about what motherhood has taught me, how under appreciated mom's can be, and how I could be a better mom the following year.
I have the same thought this year.

This second year of motherhood has been harder than the first. A lot harder. But it taught me that I have more patients, love, and strength than I ever thought possible. It taught me to take care of our marriage a little better and (even though it seems impossible) to put us first every once in awhile. And it reminded me to never get too comfortable, because as soon as you do something new will be thrown our way.

I hope to only grow in motherhood. I hope that the things I do right overpower my mistakes. I hope that my children know just how much I love them (they will never understand the depth, but I want them to know it's a lot). I hope I raise good humans.

And I hope there is enough coffee tomorrow to fill my exhausted body.

As I sit awake feeding our son - I'm just so.. grateful. I'm so grateful I have them as my children and grateful I get to be their mom.
I'm so overwhelmed. Because most days I have so much on my plate I have to remind myself to eat or breathe.
I'm so in love. Because my family fills me with such joy and happiness.. when they aren't driving me nuts.

I'm so worried.. because I think we are hitting a sleep regression and I'm not ready.


This Mother's Day I want each and every one of you mothers to know that I appreciate you so much. You are all amazing and I know you are all doing your best. Happy Mother's day to all of you beautiful women! May you go to the bathroom in peace today!